You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever…

Steve Jobs

And for a person who is an atheist this becomes a challenge. For the past 3-5 years my inner self has been fighting a battle. A battle to make sense of my existence and the universe. Maybe it’s because the hippocampus grows to its full potential around that age. But yeah, thats when I started questioning life itself.

From what I have read and experienced so far there are two ways to answers to the questions about us. And they are contradictory.

One school of thought is to question everything. Be the curious self that human is. It’s this feature humans which separates us from the other mammals. It’s the reason why humankind has come as far it has. Every little or big change we see in this world is because someone somewhere asked the question what if? Science is a child of this school. This is what triggers revolutions. Since childhood I have been this curious self. And that has  helped me get ahead in life. What I’ve realised is that if you keep asking questions you will keep getting answers and life will follow.

The other side of the mirror is quite different. The more spiritual and/or zen like way of looking at life where one stops questioning the things in life and accept what’s happening. Like one doesn’t question why the river flows into a sea. Accept all that comes in life without any questions and keep dancing to the cosmic tunes. I chanced upon it at a young age when I ran away from religion in search of something more genuine and less tainted. It has something that made sense of all the madness. I called it dharma; doing your duties without questioning.

I keep going through these daily battles of which path do I choose, my daily struggles. Or as its said; to be or not to be…

Life sometimes seems to be a form of elevated purposelessness and sometimes a time to put a ding in the universe.